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Meeting New Friends

So it's been quite a while since I've written down some things, so I figured it was time to sit down and capture some things. So before, I had talked about how much I wanted to start dating after the whole "family finding out" debacle, and you know what? It finally happened. Last summer I made the leap and started making new friends in the community and with that came a whole new territory I had to learn to navigate. Now as someone who never really dated before, I thought I knew the game, but lo and behold, I had much to learn. I'd gotten advice from friends, one in particular, who'd been through all of this in their 20's which undoubtedly would prove more difficult for me being in my 30's. So if you're still reading, I know you want me to get to the good stuff, so here it goes: Last spring, I'd started (once again) trying to run more, so I figured I'd try to hold myself accountable by joining a gay run club downtown. I'd met some
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A Funny Turn of Events

Hey there, Since the last post, things have been pretty much the status quo with me being infatuated with NG (not gay or nongay) guys and last night was no different, but it was one of those moments you just have to sit back and wonder if you're the butt of some joke that fate is playing. This week, I took a pointing class. It was taught by an old co-worker of mine but in the back of my mind, I thought I just might meet a nice sensitive guy who is trying to be more social and take community art classes to meet people. NOPE! WRONG! Me, 12 ladies, and one other guy whose wife clearly dragged him along. But it was great though! I met some new people and learned some cool things about art, so I'll say it was a well spent 40 bucks. Now to the main event! So remember Brandon, the guy from the last post that I met at my gym... the really cultured guy? So I was at the gym this week and we'd just finished a workout and were chatting about random stuff. Now granted, I've cl

Why Is this So Hard?

Hi all, It's a little difficult finding how I should start this blog post. I think my initial reason for writing this blog was to help process a lot of things I've been confused, and honestly frustrated about with this whole "being gay" thing. Having to deal with the extra drama of coming out to a parent who doesn't it accept it, and by extension, me has only caused more stress lately. All of this while pondering the lingering question, "Am I going to be alone forever?" During my last counseling session, we discussed a lot of that but honestly, I forget 90% of what I talk about in there. I think I should start taking notes. I do, however, remember the part of this whole process being a form of loss with my mom and family. I think that's why I've been really eager to start dating, but y'all... It's just NOT HAPPENING! I seriously don't know what to do. I'm on dating sites, I go out to social places, my friends are even trying t

Opening Post - Hello!

Hello, So I'm trying this blogging thing out, honestly for a few reasons. First, I've got a million thoughts racing through my mind every day and maybe this is the best way to sort it all out. Feel free to read for leisure or to help with some of the things I've got going on. So a little about me. I just turned 30 a few months ago and A LOT happened. I (forcibly) came out to my mom, I started a new job, and I reached a new level of acceptance and started the online dating thing. A Look Back... So about 4 years ago, I was in a pretty dark place and it was pretty much because I was in the closet. After knowing for a while (like a long time) I was gay, I never thought I would tell anyone. However, when my personal relationships started to be affected I took the biggest risk of my life and told my best friend. It was so not a big deal that it was. Like he was like "OK?, but is that why you've been so weird?" He was super suportive, but didn't press and